I guess it’s been a minute since I’ve given you the detailed ins-and-outs of my life, hasn’t it? And I’m sure you’ve just been stalking your inbox or this blog waiting for the next post, haven’t you??
Well, wait no more, my friends. A lot has gone on in the past two months. Between the wedding I was in – which was amazing – and some staff changes at work, it has been downright chaotic. My mom says I always do too much, take on too much, don’t get enough rest or downtime, etc. but during the last two months even I had to admit it was too much. But, as with most of our lives, there wasn’t much I could do about or much I could cut back on. Therefore this little blog o’ mine is one of the things that had to sit on the back burner for a bit.
So, the wedding. My goodness. If anyone ever deserved such a beautiful and flawless wedding, it was my NayNay. She was gorgeous, the weather and the venue were gorgeous, and I don’t think there was one mishap, besides leaving behind this cute little sign that the ring bearer was going to carry. I’d call that success, y’all. Oh, and that dress I had to squeeze into? By some miracle it fit just fine.
I bawled during the ceremony, because of course I did, but I managed to make it through my toast without blubbering. You know, so people could actually understand what I was saying. There were some tears (of happiness), some belly laughter, and lots of hugs. It really was an amazing wedding.
That was the end of the “fun” chaos. The company I work for has a big annual conference and we were gearing up for that to take place the first week of June. Three weeks before it, our event planner left the company. Not ideal, by any means, but we all stepped up to make sure nothing fell through the cracks. I, voluntarily, took on the bulk of those responsibilities, which meant that I was essentially doing the jobs of two people. The first few days I felt extremely overwhelmed, but I got into a rhythm and, while I was extremely busy, I never got really stressed out.
The meeting itself required me to be gone out of town for 7 days. You read that right. SEVEN days. I’ve never been away from my baby, or J for that matter, for anywhere near that long. I think J and I were both nervous for me to be gone that long. For all the responsibility of her to be on him. Now, don’t get me wrong – he is an amazing daddy and 100% capable of taking care of her all on his own. He’s just never really had to. Not for more than a day. And when mama does majority of the things on a daily basis, it can feel a little daunting. And of course I had multiple scenario fears. 1) She’d be a fussy mess and make it harder on him, or 2) She wouldn’t even know/care that I wasn’t there.
Neither situation was one I wanted to happen. I wanted her to be happy, content, and well-behaved for her daddy, but also to notice that mama was gone, and you know – ask for/look for me from time-to time. Thankfully this is pretty much how it happened. Of course when I’d call some evenings she’d say “Mama!” and some version of hello, and then she was off playing with something and couldn’t have cared less that I was on the phone. But, she’s not even 2 yet, so we can’t really expect her to understand the concept just yet.
I was so busy every day from 5 am wake up to ??? when I went to bed, that I didn’t have much time to focus on being away and missing them. Not that I didn’t miss them, but the only day it really hit me hard and had me crying was half-way through when it was also J and my anniversary. Unfortunately the timing of this meeting every year means I won’t be home on our anniversary – ever, really. But, after experiencing it this year and seeing what all there is to do at the resort we were at, I think that they will come and join me on my last day and then we’ll stay through the weekend for some family time. I’ll be away from them almost as long, but at least at the end there’s the reward of a little mini-vacay together.
With those two big events behind me, life is settling down a bit. We have a new meeting planner and we’re gearing up for our next meeting at the end of July, so I’m still helping out a bit until she gets into it full-swing, and after that…I’ll let out a big sigh of relief to let those reins go!
July and August have some potential fun lined up, so I’ll be sure to update you on all that soon! One more picture, of my sweet girl while I was gone. That smile, y’all.